Where have the weeks gone? They have been filled with lots of ups and downs for me. All is well with the pregnancy and baby, fortunately, but it was kinda scary there for a minute. Let me first say that it is confirmed that there is only one baby. One very healthy baby. So cute watching this tiny little being wiggle around on the ultrasound with arms and legs. Such an incredible reminder of the miracle taking place inside the womb.
The past few weeks have been consumed with getting insurance activated, switching care providers, and doctor visits. And continuing weekly blood draws to monitor hormone levels. If I were to give one piece of advice to someone considering surrogacy, it would be...be prepared to be poked. A LOT! Not only are there weekly blood draws but then there's all the injections that occur. My last injection was February 16th! Hooray! The last few weeks of injections I developed large walnut size bumps at the injection site and they were very painful. So thankful to be done with those.
Let me just say that there are several things I didn't expect to experience as a surrogate but mostly I didn't realize how responsible and protective over this little baby I would feel. While there is great responsibility to care for another person's child, I simply didn't realize how strongly I would feel this while carrying the baby.
So a few weeks ago I started spotting. Very scary. Don't really know why. Maybe because I stopped my progesterone shots. Maybe because the second embryo that didn't survive was trying to exit my body. But what ever the case, it was really scary. I left town for a few days to visit family with the kids but the Hubs couldn't make the trip with me. No problem there because I thought the trip would be a smooth one. I know I'm pretty attached to the Hubs and depend on him for a lot but when I started spotting, I really longed for him to be by my side. I started to panic and let fear set in. I immediately texted a few close friends to ask for prayers. I feel so fortunate that I could contact these ladies as they truly are special and amazing women. One thing that they all reminded me of is that even when we feel all alone, we are not. God is always with us and is our comfort in the face of fear. Duh, I should have remember that. But sometimes we need our friends to remind us of the obvious. Two verses they reminded me of were Isaiah 41:10 and Deuteronomy 31:6.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6
I'm praising God for the positive outcome. Regardless of the cause of the bleeding there is a miracle growing inside me and everyone is healthy. I'm continuing to put my trust in God and have peace that He is in control no matter the situation.
